“Are you sure you want her? She’s the littlest.”
The little black and white fur-ball slowly ran to me and onto my lap and we became instant friends.
“Of course this is the one we want,” and who are you anyway to try and steer us away from her just because she is the littlest? ..as if she’s not good enough. Ppshhh…
As we drove home the girls were in the back seat talking over names for her. I knew instantly what we would name her.
Meet Mercy Faith.
Our Mercy Faith is the sweetest, most loving little animal you will ever meet. She is a constant reminder to me of God’s unwavering faithfulness and love. She has been a light in our family. Mercy is one of us. We love our little shitzu so much!
Mercy Faith came to live with us at a time when I desperately just needed someone who loved me for me without knowing all of my baggage. Mercy had no idea that I had failed my Jesus, husband and everyone I knew. She had no idea and she didn’t really care. She never had to make any of these choices about me:
I choose to forgive her and love her and stay in her life.
I choose to forgive her and love her, but I will keep my distance.
I choose to forgive her but I don’t ever want to see her again.
I hate her and I hate what she did and I choose to never speak to her again.
She came to us during a time when I had to force myself to get out of bed each morning and get my girls ready for school. I was trying to practice faith in God and trying to learn from my mistakes. It was like climbing a mountain and I just couldn’t see the top. I knew Jesus had forgiven me on paper. On paper it was perfect…but feeling forgiven was another story..and it took a lot of faith to feel like I was forgiven and loved.
Faith can be so exhausting.
Then came Mercy Faith. It was like a sweet reminder from my Lord. A sweet reminder that, just like Mercy, he had no remembrance or knowledge of my failure. Because you see, when we ask for forgiveness in the name of Jesus, it’s done. Vanished. Gone. Forgotten.
Let’s talk about the definition of mercy for a moment. Webster defines it like this:
Mercy: | noun | -kind or forgiving treatment of someone that could be treated harshly.
Mercy means to be forgiving and compassionate, it means to show kindness (grace) to someone instead of a severe response that their actions may call for. Mercy, in a spiritual sense is undeserved grace. It is God not punishing us as our sins deserve. When we sin, we deserve to be separated from God. We deserve punishment. We deserve judgement. So, what we deserved is what Jesus actually got.
Ephesians 1:7 He is so rich in kindness and grace that he purchased our freedom with the blood of his Son and forgave our sins.
Imagine if you received a death sentence and were on death row. Right before the execution in walks a man named Jesus and says, “Hey, I love you and just wanted you to know that I’m dying for you today.” He is innocent yet accepting your sentence.
Um… hello?? Anyone see how honestly ridiculous that is besides me? It’s just crazy.
That’s how much he loves us.
Now let’s back up just a bit. Long before that day of execution, God said, hey- Son…I’ve got a plan and you’ll just have to trust me. I’m going to send you down to earth. You’ll live there for a while, and then you’ll die a painful and heinous death but through that you’ll save thousands of people. You’d think Jesus would throw a temper tantrum. But he didn’t. Instead he said, “Okay, whatever you ask of me I will do.”
Do you see? God sent Jesus to earth to be punished for our sins. He bought our freedom with the blood of his Son. Because of my sin I was separated from God, there was no hope for me. No hope for reconciliation. But Jesus erased all of that! Oh Jesus, how I love you so so very much!
Mercy Faith was just a reminder of Gods love for me. I was beaten up and torn down. Now hear me- I was beaten up and torn down because of me. I was the one beating and tearing myself down.
It was me.
It’s easy to be merciful toward each other. But sometimes the one you are the least merciful to is yourself. To be healed and whole you must show yourself some mercy by not thinking horribly of yourself. You gotta stop beating yourself up. In other words:
Get over yourself.
Because of Mercy, I am free. Because of Mercy, I am whole and I am healed.
I pray mercy, upon mercy, upon mercy to you today! I pray that you realize that God’s mercy is bigger than any mistake that you have made and that you feel His presence in such a strong and powerful way today!
I love you, friend!