Breaking out of my bubble.

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Breaking out of my bubble was hard.

Breaking out of my bubble was really, really hard. In the bubble I am safe and secure. No one can hurt me. I can live my beautiful little life with my beautiful little family without interruption. I can keep a distance from those that are outside my four walls.  I can go about my daily tasks with no responsibilities other than taking care of my family and making sure that their needs are met. In my bubble, when I do get out, it’s quick. Grocery store, back home. Target, back home. Sephora (I mean, come on- bubble or no bubble; Sephora is a must), back home. Church (get there right when service starts and leave right before dismissal so I don’t have to talk to anyone), back home.

As nice as that may sound, it’s not a life. At least not the life God wants for me- or anyone I dare say. Several years ago God took a pin and popped that sucker because He just wasn’t havin’ it. It’s not who I was. Not who I am. It’s not how He made me. I can imagine how annoyed He gets when His children live their lives the exact opposite of the way they were made.

Breaking out of my bubble and 5 things I learned from speaking at a women's conference

5 things I learned from speaking at a women’s conference.

I never thought I would be a speaker. Never in a million years. I just never thought I was qualified and I still don’t feel qualified.  I’m not eloquent in my speech. I’m not well-versed, refined or polished. I’m just..well.. I’m me. Imperfect me.

God doesn't call the qualified, He qualifies the called. -Unknown Click To Tweet

I grew up eating pork-n-beans. Cold. Out of the can. I know what you’re thinking. It’s the same thing I think every time I open up a can today. Yes I still eat them. Cold. Out of the can.

Gross. 

I can’t believe I’m eating these right out of the can.

Listen to me though- they are seriously so good scooped up with a potato chip and paired with a homemade grilled hamburger. Ok that’s enough about that, let’s move on.

I faintly remember laughter being associated with pork-n-beans growing up. See, I had these speech impediments as a child. I couldn’t pronounce my r’s, I had a lisp, and I stuttered.

Out of them all, the r’s thing was the worst. I pronounced “r” like the short vowel “o” as in {lock}. So, I pronounced the word “pork” like “pock.” Now, to make things worse, when I was young, instead of saying pork-n-beans, I said fork-n-beans. Or, in Shannon language, fock-n-beans.

See where I’m going here? {#seewhatIdidthere} Just say it. Fock-n-beans. What does it sound like?

Yeah- nice, huh? We still laugh about that in my family today!

Let me assure you, dropping the F bomb is not in my vocabulary. Promise.

Thank the Lord for speech therapy! 

Today I say my r’s correctly. I don’t really stutter, but if I get really excited about something, and if I don’t make a conscience effort to slow down, I will stutter &/or get my words mixed up. I only have a slight lisp, which is noticeable when I’m really tired or lazy with my words. I’m not gonna lie..it can really be annoying and embarrassing. If I allowed it,  it would definitely be a stumbling block.

This is why I’m surprised but deeply grateful at the path of which God is leading me. Me? A speaker? Miracles do happen folks.

Last year I was honored to speak at Be Brave Women’s Conference at Woodlake Church in Tulsa, Oklahoma. The impact that this conference had on the ladies that attended and on me is lasting and far from complete. I am certain that the residual effects have left thumbprint stains on hearts. I’ve been reminded lately of that experience and what God taught me, so I thought I’d share 5 things that I learned from speaking with you today.

1. There is healing in sharing your story.

Healing for you and for me. I was terrified to share my story, but I knew I was doing exactly what He had called me to do. Each time I share I receive more healing. Jesus never tires of giving us what we need, and he never puts a cap on how much healing we receive. As I was closing I will never forget the deep sobs and cries I heard coming out of the audience. Healing was taking place!

2. Everyone has a story.

Every. Single. One. Of. Us. We all have a story. We’ve all been through junk. Junk that could lead towards healing for another. I am so grateful that I shared mine. And I’m so grateful that others were willing to listen.

3. All things really are possible with God.

Thinking back on that night, I remember that I was nervous, but not as nervous as I thought that I would be. It wasn’t the heart-pounding, sweating-type nervous. When I got up to the podium I had a peace that just can’t be explained. A peace that surpasses all understanding. I had a confidence that ONLY comes from Him. I just don’t understand it. It is a feeling that I will forever remember.

4. When God is in it, every single piece falls in place.

From the conversations I had with random people, to things surrounding my family; I learned that when you truly are in His will every thing will fall into place and be in order. God is a God of details, you know? I’d been preparing to share my story for a couple of years and honestly I was very fearful.  It took so much faith for me to trust in God and that this was HIM not me. I’d gone back and forth with Him for months about whether or not I should share. I would say, “Lord- now listen- I’m not doing this if it isn’t YOU. I’m not doing this unless you are 100% the one leading me.” On one hand I knew I was supposed to, but on the other hand, WHO DOES THAT?  I mean who gets up in front of hundreds of people and admits to infidelity? I had so much to lose, yet so much was gained!

If you are truly in His will, things will automatically fall into place. Click To Tweet

5. There will be those that are silent as you answer His call. 

Those that you thought would be among your biggest cheerleaders. You just knew they would be there to support and rally around you; yet they are no where to be found. And it’s okay.  Ya know, through this I’ve learned that one of the signs of a mature christian is not getting upset or offended when the behavior of another is opposite of what you think it should be otherwise. It makes my flesh very sad. It’s confusing and very easy to misunderstand. But, with all of that said, it’s life. People will always disappoint but God never does, right? And, we don’t really know what others are going through. It’s certainly not my place to judge! Ya know, as sure as there are those that will remain silent, there will be those that rise up and bless you more than you could ever imagine. God has placed some of the most amazing women in my path and I am so grateful. Referencing back to #4- God perfectly placed every piece together!

What is it that keeps you in your bubble? Do you have a story that needs to be told? I’d love to hear about it! Contact me or comment below.

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  1. Kristine says:

    Shannon, love these five lessons! And I also love your open heart<3 Number 4 made me laugh out loud because I can’t tell you how many times I’ve said those same words! Your post is great inspiration for me today. Happy I came across your post at #livefree link up:)

  2. Shannon, loved this post. Loved your story and how God has equipped you for a ministry you never saw coming. Happy to find you today at #livefreeThursday!

  3. So delighted to find your blog through the #RaRaLinkup, Shannon! I am going through a similar experience in life right now, and I can totally relate to this post! Thank you for sharing your heart. God is so gracious in providing us with all we need to accomplish His calling on our lives, Amen?! 😀

  4. angie says:

    love your post, we all have a story to share. The reason we have that story and have faced those experiences it is my belief to share with others. Yes, it was a struggle you can well imagine there may be someone else going through it. I agree with you we should share our story
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  5. Shannon,

    I could relate so much to your first paragraph. I really am a people person, but I guess you could say I’m an introverted extrovert. My life right now is my home and family and extended family. It truly is a ministry. But even with being surrounded with a house full of people, it can still feel lonely. We really were made for community and especially friends to do life and Jesus with.

    I loved all the insights you shared which you learned from speaking. I was especially taken by your comment that there will be those who are silent when you answer His call. It is so true that there are those that we think will be our biggest cheerleaders, but end up not. I didn’t realize how often I do this until I read your post.

    I really liked the quote that says when we are in His will everything falls into place. Indeed, “Seek ye first the Kingdom of God and His righteousness and all these things will be added unto you.”

    Thank you for sharing such an edifying post!

    • Shannon says:

      Thank you so much Karen! I appreciate you! I’m an introverted extrovert too! I honestly really like my fuzzy socks, fuzzy blanket and comfortable sofa so much I could just bask there all day long. But I don’t! Thank you for stopping by my little corner today! xoSHannon

  6. So glad to come across your blog and this post was just what I needed to read. I’ve been feeling that push to step out of my bubble and speak. I have felt for years now that speaking and writing were exactly where God was leading me. I let my own insecurities get in the way! How did you get started in speaking? Thank you for sharing … and shining a little hope my way 🙂 xoxo, Jen

    • Shannon says:

      Jen- I just decided to let go! To let go and let God! Once I did that everything fell in to place. Don’t allow yourself to be led by your insecurities!!! You go girl! Just go! xoShannon

  7. Kristi Woods says:

    Love it, Shannon. Girl ~ the beauty of where Jesus has brought you shines like a diamond ~ or glittery eye shadow from Sephora. 😉 I love hearing what He has done! Can’t wait to connect in person and hear all of this “in the real”, “in the now”. Have a wonderful weekend.

  8. Dawn says:

    I really enjoyed this post, Shannon. I imagine you must speak a lot like you write, intentionally transparent Number 5 had me going back and reading your word over because I have been easily tripped up by that one right there. The unrealistic expecations I put on me and on others really can hijack my joy when it comes to speaking and the results afterwards, but you are right.. it is not how we need to act or perceive ourselves.
    Thank you for such a poignant reminder of grace.
    Blessings,
    Dawn

    • Shannon says:

      Dawn- Yes- honestly we’re all just trying to do our best in this world, and we’re only human. Unrealistic expectations do rob us of fulfilling our purpose! It’s one of Satans little tricks! Thank you for stopping by!!! xoxo

  9. Love your #1 and 4, Shannon. This encouraged me! Hugs and Happy Easter! 🙂

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