Finding Peace Behind the Pain | {Fiercely His #12}

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We’re starting off our #fiercelyHis week with Jennifer Moye. Jen is an absolute inspiration as you will find out after you read today’s post. Our pain is nothing compared to the pain and suffering that Jesus felt. Jen’s a strong woman!

Is there peace behind the pain?

Is there peace behind the pain? Over 100 million Americans suffer from chronic pain. My Savior is no stranger to the pain I feel. Did He lay down and give in? No! He stood strong and pressed on in His Father’s will for Him. I began to see . . . I should too.

I can’t remember a time when I didn’t hurt. Some days the pain is bearable.

Some days it hurts to breathe.

I’m a military wife and mother to three very energetic little boys who rarely slow down to accommodate mom’s aching body.

Medically speaking, I have been diagnosed with fibromyalgia, bursitis, costochondritis, and osteoarthritis . . . and I am only 33 years old. My doctors have given up and referred me to pain management centers to try and get the pain under control.

I tell you this not for your sympathy. I tell you this because over 100 million Americans suffer with chronic pain.Over 100 million Americans suffer w/ chronic pain. #fiercelyHis @jenmoyewrites #peacebehindpain Click To Tweet

Chances are one of you reading this is in the boat with me. Shortly after having our third child I reached a low point in my life. I was overwhelmed trying to juggle a 1 year old, a 2 ½ year old, and a newborn preemie.

All I wanted to do was sleep.

Sleep was the only way to escape the pain. Each day became a battle to keep from sliding down the slippery slope into depression pulling on me. I felt so helpless and weak, as though life was just happening to me.

In the midst of it all I heard the word a military wife dreads the most.

Deployment.

My precious husband was sent overseas for about 7 months, and there I sat with 3 boys.

It was in those 7 months that I wrestled with God over my pain and self-pity to the point of complete brokenness.

I physically could not get out of the bed to care for my own children. In that brokenness I was finally still enough to hear God speak to me. I began to slow down enough to listen for His small voice that is always there with me.

Instead of my usual pleas to take the pain away, I buried my nose in the Scriptures searching for hope. I finally began to see God for who He truly is, and who I am in Him.

Job, who endured unspeakable suffering, said “My ears had heard of you but now my eyes have seen you.” (Job 42:5)

This was exactly what I had been doing over the last year. I knew the Sunday school answers but my heart was too focused on me, and not on Him. The first thing I learned about suffering is that it yields intimacy with God. My pain draws me closer to Him.Pain draws me closer to God. #fiercelyHis #peacebehindpain @jenmoyewrites Click To Tweet

I was slowly finding peace behind the pain.

Isaiah 48:10  “…I have refined you, though not as silver; I have tested you in the furnace of affliction.”
This verse makes it clear that pain and suffering have a way of bringing our strengths and weaknesses to the surface. Is this what God is doing when He allows my pain to come? Is He trying to refine me and shape me to look more like Him? Maybe my suffering is God’s way of refining me.

Jesus understands our pain!

You see, when we seek God through His Word and prayer, we find Jesus. I sometimes forget that Jesus understands our pain because He, too, suffered. We read the words of Psalm 22:1: “My God, my God, why have you forsaken me? Why are you so far from saving me, so far from the words of my groaning?”

My Savior is no stranger to the pain I feel. Did He lay down and give in? No! He stood strong and pressed on in His Father’s will for Him.

I began to see . . . I should too.

My husband was deployed in a war zone.

My children needed me.

My body was failing me.

The way I saw things, I had two choices:  

I could lay down and feel sorry for myself, wallow in my pain and depression, or I could choose to let God show off His power through me.U can lay down& feel sorry for yourself or you can let God show His power in you.… Click To Tweet

 

Over 100 million Americans suffer from chronic pain. You can either lay down and wallow in the pain and suffering, or you can choose to get up and let God show off His power within you!

My grace is sufficient for you, for my power is made perfect in weakness” (2 Corinthians 12:9). 

Finding peace behind the pain and becoming #fierce.

I needed to become fierce!

Not in my own strength but in His.

I needed faith that He was always on my side and even though others could not, God always sees my pain. God ALWAYS sees our pain! #fiercelyHis @jenmoyewrites Click To TweetNothing happens that He isn’t aware of.

“Faith isn’t thinking everything will go my way, it’s resting in the truth that God is in control.”

God protects me, and God is working for my ultimate redemption – even when the opposite seems to be true.

Faith means I stand strong with God in the good times and the hard times. It’s a daily decision. One I have continued to make since that deployment.

Each morning as I pull my achy body out of bed, before my feet hit the floor, I am asking God for my daily portion. Just enough to get through this day and glorify Him while doing it.

Are there hard days and tears of weariness and defeat? Absolutely!

I will never understand fully why we face despair while others don’t. It isn’t my job to know why. It is my job to believe that God is who He says He is and He will do what He says He will do.

He is my Redeemer and my Portion.

He is my Strength and my Firm Foundation.

I am weak, but in Him I am undefeatable.

When I choose to stand in the hand of my God I am fierce!

Is there peace behind pain? Over 100 million Americans suffer from chronic pain. My Savior is no stranger to the pain I feel. Did He lay down and give in? No! He stood strong and pressed on in His Father’s will for Him. I began to see . . . I should too.

Whatever pain or hardship you face today, know that God sees you right where you are.

He has never left you and He never will.

Stop trying to live in your own strength, it is too hard. Step out of your defeat and depression and step into His loving arms.

Find your fierceness in Him. Find peace behind the pain.

He understands and His heart’s desire is for you to draw close to Him in your weakness. In the midst of your valley, dig into His Word. Slow down enough to hear His still and small voice. He is there. He is calling you to Him. He wants to refine you a little more today. Trust Him. He is worthy.

Jennifer is a fighter! #FiercelyHis

mjennifer2Jennifer is wife to an Airman and mom to three rambunctious little boys. With excitement on a daily basis and grace around every corner, she believes we are meant to live this life in community with others and with the mercy to mess up and try again….and again.  Being a mom is hard, but it is also a divine calling we can have in this life. Her ministry to women is relevant and heartfelt with her core passion being that we learn to glorify our God in our parenting, our marriage, and in our everyday lives. Jennifer blogs over at JenniferMoye.com

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  1. Leah says:

    Hello! Oh you poor thing. I can somewhat relate to you but in a different way. My first husband was in the military. He had terrible PTSD and blacked out while driving. My two month old son and I were in the car (and my kitty!). They were all okay but I was not. I had whiplash, tmj, a twisted hip, pinched sciatic nerve and some kind of pain in my arms that feels like arthritis. I couldn’t move. I couldn’t bend over to pick up my baby. Today, I’m much better than I was, the pain is manageable but absolutely chronic. I don’t know why God allows us to suffer but I know it’s never to hurt us. What the enemy uses for evil, God will use for good. That said- I’ll never stop hoping for total healing 🙂 thanks for sharing your story!

  2. REBECCALYNN says:

    That’s absolutely true, Leah – “what the enemy uses for evil, God will use for good.” Romans 8:28 is my life verse and is one of many that makes this a very clear truth to cling to!

    Thank you for sharing this story with us, Jen! I know what a fierce fighter you are! And all that you have been through – and continue to face – God is using to create your beautiful mosaic. 🙂 You are loved and cherished!!

  3. THIS <3 <3 <3 “Pain says lay down and feel sorry for yourself. God says let me show off my power in you.” Love that quote graphic. Printing this and putting in my office. Beautiful post, Shannon. Thank you!!

  4. Deb Wolf says:

    Jennifer, you pulled me in when you said how you turned to God’s Word in your brokenness. That is my story! Not one of physical pain but emotional. And as I found myself curled up on my bed completely crumbled it was either give in or turn to Jesus. And you’re right, He gives enough strength for today and that’s all I need. Praying for you today and following you on all social media. I’m looking forward to getting to know you! Blessings!

  5. MELANIE REDD says:

    Wow, Jennifer, what a testimony!
    I’m so sorry you’ve had to life with such pain, but thank you for using your pain and suffering to minister to others! You are a blessing!
    Thanks, Shannon, for sharing this message. I believe many will be blessed~
    Melanie

  6. As a mom to three boys, I can not imagine what it must be like to care for them with this constant pain. I’m so thankful you have a testimony of finding peace. The peace that God gives is the only thing that can get us from day to day. Thanks so much for sharing!

  7. You are such a fierce fighter, and I think it’s great that you are able to recognize the need to call on His strength! I know for my own issues I realize that it can pull me into a pit or propel me to have a greater dependence on God. Thank you for (as always) sharing from your heart, and know that you do indeed bring alot of joy when you walk into the room! I loved meeting you this past weekend and I am blessed to call you friend! 🙂

  8. Michelle says:

    Do you know how incredibly strong you are? It is hard enough to raise three boys alone, but in chronic pain. Incredible. Your story is an inspiration to many. I have RA and on the days it is painful, all I want to do is not move. I don’t have little ones to raise anymore and I can’t even imagine if I did through pain. Your story will be in the back of my mind each time I have a pity party. Blessings to you sweet lady!

  9. […] Finding Peace Beyond the Pain by Jennifer Moye “You see, when we seek God through His Word and prayer, we find Jesus. I sometimes forget that Jesus understands our pain because He, too, suffered. We read the words of Psalm 22:1: ‘My God, my God, why have you forsaken me? Why are you so far from saving me, so far from the words of my groaning?'” […]

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