When Life is Awkward


When life is awkward


It’s the only word I can think of to describe my life right now.

A lot of my days as of late have consisted of memorizing the chorus and the clap-snap-clap to “Closer” by the Chainsmokers. I mean seriously…shouldn’t I be doing something…anything else? Awkward.

My youngest little is trying to navigate herself socially around a school that is 3 times the size of her previous school. Bless her sweet soul.

Our current living situation is a corporate apartment, which means that it was fully furnished and provided by John’s company. Knowing that this is a HUGE blessing, it’s also a bit awkward. All of the furnishings are not my own, which means they really aren’t my taste. Awkward.

We’re in the process of remodeling and finishing the basement out in our home that we just purchased. We move in next week and will be smack dab in the middle of it all. Please pray for my hair. I’m hoping it all will be in tact when this is done.

Half our clothes are in storage. (This includes my favorite fall boots, which is a travesty in itself)

All of the above reflect different shades of awkward.

Awkward isn’t necessarily bad, just- um..”awkward.”

On the bright side, amidst all the “awkwardness,” my youngest little and I have had the most fun times lately. We’re learning how to navigate life without Alex and although I miss her so.stinking.much., Averee and I are having a blast with each other as we’re searching for our new normal.

Laughter really is the best medicine.

Alex, who we all know is a freshman in college is having the time of her life. Oh she’s having the time of her life alright…anyone that follows her Instagram account can see that with just one picture. Something has happened and she’s been “struck.” And she’s glowing.  I’ll just leave that right there.

Then last Sunday John had a “God” moment. I love God moments, don’t you? This particular moment was something that included our entire family of four. As he began to share it with me he wept. And then well, you know, I wept. And we wept together for several minutes. I love the beautiful moments in marriage that are vulnerable and raw. I also love the strength of a man who isn’t afraid to cry. Tears from a man reflect such strength. What a blessing.

I’m thankful that throughout the awkward moments in life we’re able to laugh, cry and glow. In this period of transition I want you all to know that appreciate your patience as I adjust to a new routine and writing schedule.

The next 4-6 weeks will be extremely hectic as we are in the middle of the remodel and basement finish and also hosting family visits and I deeply appreciate your prayers!

I love you all so so much!

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  1. Melanie Redd says:

    Awkward is a great word to describe moving!

    I can remember laughing too loud with people who hardly knew me. Awkward! Or, saying the wrong thing at the wrong time. Awkward!

    But, I also can relate to you about enjoying your family during a moving time. They feel awkward too, so you get to grow closer to them!

    So glad to hear that you girl are having fun together! Sweet.

    Awkward will pass. You are going to get through this!

    Praying for God to send you the most amazing friends you’ve ever had!

  2. Julie says:

    Ha ha! My 15 year old daughter uses awkward a lot. I tell her it’s ok to have those moments. I suggested she take action and make those moments more comfortable.
    Lots of changes are coming soon for you. Praying awkward turns into comfortable soon!

    P.S. Do you know how many times I spelled awkward wrong and the computer alerted me to this? Totally awkward;)

  3. Lux G. says:

    I love God moments too.
    Like is a little off for me lately too. Working on it. We can do this!

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